During our wedding, my niece Kayleigh read the love passage from 1 Corinthians! She read it so well and it was so sweet and tender, coming from such a young beautiful little girl, but the part that got me the most was the last three words that she read "LOVE NEVER FAILS!" I'm not sure if while practicing it my sister coached her to make those last 3 words more emphasized and bold, or if she did that one her own, but dang they were powerful. It was almost as if there was a period after each word...a short pause...
LOVE. NEVER. FAILS.
As I look back on the last 3 months that we have been married there have been many ups and downs, so much laughter and love, memories that are only just beginning and a lifetime ahead of us, but there has also been struggles. One of the biggest struggles that we have (and are still learning how to) overcome is rooted in my fear of failure. I long so much to be a good wife, a good house keeper, a good cook, a friend, a lover, a help mate to my husband, but so often I fall short. I know this is normal and we are human and it will happen, but for me when it happens, in my mind I get this overwhelming thought of failure. If a meal isn't perfect, I failed. If the laundry isn't done, I failed. If the house is still a mess when the hubby gets home from work, I failed. I have struggled for awhile with this fear of being a failure in life, not only in my marriage, and I am learning to lean on my Heavenly Father.
This weekend Christopher and I got away for a very quick little trip to celebrate our 3 months and I was thinking about all the details of our wedding and Kayleigh reading that verse came back to mind and those 3 words rang over and over and over again in my head. LOVE. NEVER. FAILS. If I am truly striving to love my husband, than I will NOT fail!!! I may....no I WILL fall short, there will be times that dinner isn't perfect and the house is a mess and laundry isn't done, but that doesn't mean that I am failing as a wife! It just means I'm human. As long as loving my husband is my priority...I WILL NOT FAIL...because Love. Never. Fails! In the same way that my Jesus has grace and understanding when I mess up, my husband has done nothing but shown me that same type of grace and understanding over the last few months. I am determined not to let the devil whisper his little lies of failure into my ears anymore when things aren't perfect, but instead to look to the cross and to know that everywhere I fall short, is only an opportunity for improvement in the future, only a chance to accept grace from both my Heavenly Father and my husband, only a chance to LOVE my husband with every fiber of my being, because as long as my priority is not to be the perfect wife, but to love him more, than I will not fail, because LOVE. NEVER. FAILS.
This song was played at our wedding during the pouring of our unity sand and while our parents took turns praying over us, it is such a great song!Love Never Fails - Brandon Heath
