I am SO blessed!!

As I got off of work today, I received this text from Christopher:

"One of the paramedics brought her daughter up here and she was seeming tired so I picked her up and was holding her and she was falling asleep and she was like woah she never let's people hold her lol then my instructor was like your gonna be a good dad :) "

I read words like that and my heart melts! I know that not only am I marrying an amazing Man of God, but someone who will one day be "Daddy" to my children and possibly even some orphans if the Lord so entrusts some into our hands. I know that Christopher will be an amazing husband and a great father, I am so blessed!!!

Remember!!

I am sure that most of you have heard the song, "Your Grace is Enough" by Chris Tomlin....I used to HATE it!! I mean seriously, our God does not forget us. Why does the bridge say, "Remember your people, Remember your children, Remember your promise!" Do we really think that God has forgotten His people, or His children, or even His promises? I used to sing this song and get so very annoyed, He has not forgotten us, He loves us!!! That was, up until a few weeks ago....

I was in Texas standing between my fiance and his father and we were singing this song....and as I sang the words God gave me vision...it went a little something like this.....

REMEMBER YOUR PEOPLE....



REMEMBER YOUR CHILDREN....



REMEMBER YOUR PROMISE...

"A father to the fatherless,
a defender of widows,
is God in his holy dwelling.
God sets the lonely in families"

You see..this song for me now goes so much deeper than God remembering us, its all about us remembering HIS people, HIS children, HIS promises!! We are called to love on the widows and the orphans!! Christopher and I were talking later that day, and I told him that I feel like our home in Africa will be an open door, somewhere that the widows and orphans can come and be loved, somewhere they are safe and fed!! I am excited for the things that the Lord has in store for us as a couple! I can't wait to go and love on the widows and the orphans and to be truly REMEMBER HIS PEOPLE, HIS CHILDREN, and HIS PROMISES!!!!

Until then, I will sing this song and smile, His grace truly is enough for me, and I will remember His promises!!!

Africa!

It's hard to believe that I am getting married in 84 days!! I am so excited! Along with that excitement come many questions about the future, from other people and myself. Most of the time when I tell people that I will be moving to Africa as soon as God opens the doors for Christopher and I to be there, people are shocked and surprised! Believe me, it took me awhile for God to convince me that He could use little me in such a big place, far from everything I know and love, but over time He has given me such a heart and passion for this lost and forgotten people, for the widows and the orphans, that when I see pictures and hear stories, my heart aches, I can't wait to be back there serving my God and these people, along side my husband (hehe..I really like the sound of that!) :-)

So the question remains, what does that look like? What will you be doing? Truth? We have absolutely no idea, but we are open to whatever the Lord places before us! I have dreams and visions of our home being constantly open, a safe haven for widows and orphans. A place where we love on and nurture young ones. A place where we come along side widows and help them to nurture their own children, and provide for themselves. I don't want our house to be somewhere that people just come to be spoiled, but rather a place where they come to be taught. Taught about how to raise children, provide for themselves, but most of all I want them to be taught about the love of Christ! I see children playing in the yard (dirt); our own biological children, the orphans we have taken in and the children from the village! I hear laughter and joy bouncing down the dirt roads and through the dirt huts! You see, I know this life will not be easy, I know there will be pain and hurt, I know there will be days when my heart is filled with pain as I watch little ones suffer, but I also know that our God is the great physician and I know that there will also be days when we see healings, both physical and spiritual!! I know there will be days of great joy and days of great sorrow, but I know that no matter what kind of day it is, I will still chose to serve my Father and He will still be good and still be on His throne!

I don't know if these dreams I have will match up with what the Lord has in store for us, but I know that He has a great call on our lives! There have been many times over the past few months when I have thought about the future and been worried, because we don't have a plan, we don't know what is in store. But as I was reading a book the other night for my Evangelism and Discipleship class, the author was talking about when Christ called His disciples. He didn't have some great plan for His ministry, He didn't have a program or a way He was going to change the world. He didn't plan out this amazing ministry and then get leaders, instead He got leaders and then planned the ministry. Jesus didn't use programs and lessons, He used PEOPLE! I know God has called Christopher and I to go where some people won't go, I know He has called us not to live the "safe" life! I know that He has chosen us to be His "people", now we are just waiting for Him to open the doors and to lead us as we start His "ministry!"

I wanna be a GREEN light!

Ever have those moments where God speaks to you and its almost like a "DUH" moment? Today while I was sitting in the gym during our Crosswalk service listening to Pastor preach about Caleb, I had one of those "DUH" moments! Pastor was talking about how Caleb was a green light when it came to following the Lord! He just went full force, didn't slow down, didn't hesitate, just went! Pastor then went on to talk about being red and yellow light people, people that either completely STOP and sit and wait until they are absolutely sure it is God speaking or people that hesitate and go forward with lots of caution, always wanting to follow God, but doing it with caution!

As I sat there and listened to Pastor preach it was a DUH moment for me, because I am being that "yellow" light person! Don't get me wrong, I'm about to get married and go into full time missions, but even in that my yellow light in the back ground is still going off, I'm still being overly cautious and asking all the "buts" and "what-ifs" that I could ever imagine! My fiance is a complete "Green" light kinda guy, if God say go, Christopher doesn't hesitate, he packs up and is off. I don't want to be the back-seat driver that slows us down but telling him to be careful and waiting. If God says go, I want to trust not only the Lord, but the instincts of my future husband and just go! I want to be a "green light" kinda girl! The girl that is willing to leave it all behind and just go, the kind that doesn't sit back and wonder if it is really, but just trusts that He will close the door if we aren't supposed to be walking through it!

Pastor also shared that his grandmother's prayer for his life became this,
"If there is a door that you want Craig to be walking through and he isn't,
just shove him through it!"

That is going to become my prayer for me!
"God if you want us to go and the "yellow light" in me starts to shine,
will you just shove me through!"


I WANT TO BE A GREEN LIGHT FOR GOD!!!